"Symptoms"

Months ago I posted my journal of my life, and times in hospital for a month. Turns out I nearly kicked the bucket. Who knew. I thought it was just a flu. Turns out my guts were about to have a melt down.

In 2016 I told the story also somewhere on this page about my "Great Famine of 2016". This when the government mistakenly shut off my food supplements. I went hungry for six months. Well actually seven months, and three days.

Now I have intermittent periods of hunger.

More annoying than dangerous. Last time I had to sell many of my possessions to stay alive. That was a one time deal. Nothing left to sell. I still have my small retirement, and medical also my food card still works only it's been reduced. Seems I didn't die like I was supposed to so they cut it back to hopefully finish me, and the other old farts off.

However that doesn't matter. I just wanted to mention symptoms. I don't think I did that last time during the big famine. I was too busy figuring stuff out to stay alive.

The mechanics of hunger was just a given so I never got around to describing it.

Where to begin?

Well first it hurts. Hunger hurts. Rather bad actually. Hunger like dehydration is somewhat the same as a hang over. You're deprived of liquids so body pains slowly kick in. 

Mostly for me at least headaches. They go from mild to serious. Dizziness as you'd imagine. Also loss of balance. Again this from mild to extreme. I have trouble walking I nearly fell a few times.

Oh poor me,....ah gimme a break.

Blood. You cough up blood. Just streaks mind, but it comes. Pain in the gastro-intestinal very loose stool. Yeah way too much information, but it happens.

In the emotional part of the deal one is depressed angry confused weird dreams all that. You become fed up with the whole business of being older fucked up poor alone hungry. This is why the elderly blow their brains out so much.

I'd do that. In fact made careful plans for it, but fuck it.

I want to hang around for the next season of "Doctor Who". I used to say I'm staying to see if "Star Trek" ever gets better. However since the fuckers brought it back online behind a paywall...fuck'em to hell.

Oddly the hunger pangs dissipate after a day or two. You've felt these if you've dieted or missed lunch. Well when there's no meals whatever for days at a time your body quickly adjusts. Remember we're animals. You being to live off your own fat.

Been through this a number of times now. I get thin then when things get slightly better fill out again. Right now I'm thinning out,...again

Yeah it's a drag.

No I haven't contacted family or friends. I'm now just like that is all. I'm on my own that's that. This is my problem I don't want bother anyone for anything. I want to pay my own way as I have all my life.

Yes my dear sister pays for my cable, and connection that, and helped me when I lost my home years ago. Also later when I needed medical help. She helped me get connected to Medicare, and more.

She saved my life. ...literally.

The down side I over depended on her. I just can never do that again. Not to her or anyone.

Getting back to symptoms did I mention hunger makes you vomit water? Weird that. I looked it up.
Something about mini-convulsions as your body contracts...yuck.

All in all malnutrition sucks. Avoid it if you can. By all mean shove all the burgers as you can down ya maw.

You won't be sorry.

I just figured out my account should refill with Social Security pennies in four or so days. My health card for food refills a week later.

So it looks like I get to eat by the coming weekend.

This means I eat nothing whatever till then.

All together that'll make eight days without solid food. Not so bad. I went longer during the famine.

Com'on it's okay I was rationing juice for most of that time. I had the last before I posted this. Yeah I know this sound horrifying, but humans are far more resilient that you suppose. You could survive this too. The way things are going at least once in your life you're going to.

I'll update when I get something to eat in a few days.

Stay Tuned.